This goes to the Yeti:
You've never wanted chances. You made your decision a long time ago and you're sticking with it, it's only me who thinks you'd give a crap about how I feel and what I think.
And I have to accept that.
I was once convinced that you cared about me as much as I cared about you and that you wanted me in your life the same way I did. You just weren't ready.
But that's not true.
I was a tool. Something you used and once you found something better, you threw it away, is that what it was? Because, I mean, though you and your drunk ass kept begging the differ, I wasn't convinced.
My dad died and you asked me how I felt and I shut you down like I did with everyone else, yet many other people, all who aren't as close to me as you, kept pushing and repeatedly asked me how I felt. You didn't, because you got intimidated by my harshness?
Oh.. please, really?
I've made an effort to never go bitches-be-crazy on you, because I thought you deserved better. You don't, obviously, but I felt like I'm not in the place to stand you up like that. I am in no place to go all bitchface on your stupid ass. And you really thought that I don't have agressions in me? That I never rant or freak out and scream? And the ONE time that I do that via text message (geez, I didn't even get to scream at you live -- And even if I had, would you have hidden under the closest table?!), you get INTIMIDATED???? REALLY????
My dad is dead. It was sudden. Can't I catch a break from being awfully nice to you all the time?
I mean, seriously.
Are you that weak? Getting intimidated by ME, the girl who took so much crap from you. All the stuff you did, all the ways you hurt me and I never went crazy on you. I'm not intimidating. And if I am, you're too weak of a guy to be of my interest and concern. I need someone strong who can take my crap and support me when I need it.
Just... I don't know... Go watch Steffi for a bit, she's doing a heck of a good job taking allll my crap. She never get's scared of me, she can fight back and soothe me at the same time. Go and be a bit more like her. Please?
